Tuesday, January 31, 2006

A LETTER TO MRS. KING


CORETTA SCOTT KING
1927-2006
I woke up this morning to images of your beautiful face on my television. There was coverage on your life and legacy and immediately my knees began to buckle. No, I said to myself, I couldn’t believe it. I ran to my PC and checked the local news, and it confirmed it. You have passed away and have now gone to a better place. They say a man’s not supposed to cry but this man right here felt the tears as if it were his own mother. You were an icon in your own right, and the African American community embraced you and your family as the First Family of Civil Rights. Thanks to the work pioneered through Mr. King, we live in a time where people of all races, color, and gender are beginning to be accepted into society for what they stand for, as opposed to their physical attributes. Although I am a full blooded latino, my dad was a very dark skinned colored man. He was shot to his own death months before I was born, and growing up I often wondered what this life is about. Is it about money and power? It couldn’t be, because my father had plenty of it, and still passed. It definitely couldn’t be about eternal living so what is this thing called life? Is there a purpose? Thanks to icons like yourself I had people to look up to and admire that provided answers to some of these questions.

My own mother wasn’t around to watch me grow up because she gave legal rights to my godmother, a friend of my father’s, at only a few months of age. She was an older woman who was also latino of color. She always taught me how important it was that I carry myself as a man. She taught me chivalrous ideals and thanks to her, I remember to always open a door for a woman, whether it be on a date or for a coworker on her way into the building, always give up my seat to women, children, and elderly, always respect others, and be ready to fight and protect for what’s yours, because as my godmother taught me, there will be those who carry evil and envy in their hearts and that we have to pray for those people. My godmother felt it was important that I understood what type of man my father was, and I remember to this day how she would tell me stories about his life and how he treated others and it was such a blessing to have her and his memories in my life. Although my father was not a part of America’s Civil Rights Movement, he fought battles of his own. Being a person of color in Communist Cuba’s 1960’s era was certainly not a walk in the park either. The Hispanic community has a myriad of skin tones and color and we, as latin people, still to this day hold stereotypes and prejudices over our VERY OWN. My mother allowed this loving woman to raise me years ago because she, as a lighter skinned latin woman, was well aware of the tribulation and adversities she would face raising a “black” baby on her own, despite the fact that I was just as Cuban as she and her family are. Despite the fact that she already had her first son, my older brother, to a light skinned Cuban man, and her side of the family kept him around, but not me. Today, Mrs. King, we live in a world free of these prejudices. Today I can forgive my mother for her mistakes and I can have the relationship I always wanted with my family. Especially my older brother and I, who have always been very close growing up, despite the fact that we were raised by two different families. My family, along with most of the world, has gotten past some of these adversities, but sometimes everyday people lead me to believe that we still have some more to go.

Mrs. King, you have traveled the world and touched many people’s heart and lives. The same glow I watch that lived in your eyes lived in my godmother’s as well. You are people with a purpose, and a calling. I am a strong believer in that everything we experience has reason. I believe God delivers people in our lives with a purpose. My godmother did such a good job raising me into the honest and God fearing man that I am today. Beyond my faults and flaws I know my father lives in me and that I have a good and sincere heart thanks to her. Both of you are so similar in purpose because you have done the same with your own life and children. Mrs. King I believe people will remember you as a historic icon of our time and your name will be kept alive through the continued work of your closest friends and family, God willing. I never had a chance to meet you in person, but watching you in the media I can tell what an honor it was for others to be in your presence. You had that glow that made people recognize they were in the presence of greatness. Mrs. King thank you for the memories and for carrying the torch your husband left behind for so many years. Not only were you an important figure to the Civil Rights Movement, you also fought for human rights, women, gays, latinos, and the poor. You understood what it meant to live life with a purpose, and have inspired others to do the same. Without the contribution of your efforts and others, my mother and father would probably have not had met, and I wouldn’t be here. And if I WAS here, and a latino of color, I may have not been able to sit here and type this letter to you, and share this with others worldwide who are also keeping this day as a day of reflection and prayer. You left us Coretta Scott KING, but in my eyes and heart you are truly a QUEEN and a true exemplification of a woman. May you rest in peace and God bless your soul.
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"The Battle is the Lord's" Yolanda Adams

Monday, January 30, 2006

I'm a King...


I'm a King...

"Connected nationwide within the south, just respect it and keep my name out your mouth.." (I'm a King, PSC) OK, not really royalty yet, but I sure think I am in this shot. This is latino mean muggin' at it's phynest LOL!
*heavy sigh*
... Soforeal was sodam bored this weekend. You can tell I had too much time on my hands. So I got to doing some thinking and I realized today I gotta get out of ATL for a while. I know I will be doing some traveling this summer, first to Miami in July and then to California right after for a few months. I’m only supposed to be there for a month or two on business but depending how things go I might just end up living there again. I really enjoy living in Atlanta but to be honest I was really looking for the closest thing to a city to Miami that was not actually in Florida. During my 4 year tenure here in ATL I have seen and experienced things that often made me question my motives in this city. I do feel a sense of gratitude to the blessings given to me since I have moved here. I landed a good job and evolved into manhood as I matured and grew more of a person both physically and mental. HOWEVER….I am really missing the beach. I mean it's accessible by plane but I miss having it close by. Having grown up in Miami I got sort of spoiled to the sun and the ocean and have grown to really enjoy all that has to do with it, for example rollerblading and jet skiing. I lived in CA for a while and when I was there I fell in love with Venice and Santa Monica beach. I relished the warm weather and beautiful people and I was just in total awe. I lived in the Mid Wilshire district and my boy and I would ditch our cars and take the Metro Rapid down the boulevard straight to the beach almost every weekend. So when I went back for the holidays, even though it was a very short stay I realized how much of it I missed. Then it led me to start evaluating what I had here. A few good friendships, mainly co-workers, a few jumpoffs, a great career. But is this it? Do I want to compromise my happiness for a few extra g's a year? I ran from California because the cost of living was so high but the saying is true that "you get what you pay for". Now that I am realizing that the cost of living is catching up to the west coast I am really re-evaluating some ish. My mother wants me to stay for good because she knows I would be very successful doing real estate with the family and I know I would prove her right, but I would have to readjust all over again. I have little complaints about Georgia the people have been very good to me and being originally from FL it quickly became a second home. My only beef with the town is its amenities. Or in this case, lack of.

So…I believe that this opportunity to travel this summer and having my family around is what's driving me to push harder on this working out and eating healthy tip. My mother’s doing it also, we kind of set a goal for the summer since we’re having two weddings going on in the family. Making it a lifestyle change is probably the best thing I could have ever done for myself because it came at a time when I would have gone into a slump. I feel so much better about myself because I am looking great and already seeing improvements in a lot of areas in my life. For example I’ve been able to be less stressed at work and I sleep a lot better at night. When people say diet and exercise make you feel like a new person, they couldn’t be any more sincere. So, I’m going to keep it up cause I'm feeling so great about myself. The only thing is I can give up the sugar and sodas, but it's so dam hard to say good bye to fried chicken. LOL. One of the things that’s working for me is to have a cheat day. Which for me, is Sunday, when I get to eat whatever in moderation. That way I have something to look forward to during the week while keeping my eye on the prize.

CrunkSpot:
"Already" Slim Thug feat. Trey Songz

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

M.I.A..

“It’s been a long time, I shouldn’t left you, without a dope beat to step to.” LOL, I’ve been MIA (missing in action) for quite some time but I’m back. All is good. I got an IPOD for the holidays and that has been taking up most of my online time at home. I’m also constructing a Soforeal original, CrunkSpot, where I will be able to express myself through lyrics and song. I’ve been transferring most of my CD’s over the past few days to my MP3 so I can jam to all these tunes at the gym. Oh yeah, that’s another thing, I’ve been getting to the gym at LEAST three times a week so far this month. So I’m very happy about that, and I expect to keep it up as long as possible, or until I get to my desired body frame then I can work out less vigorously.

Two weeks ago SO came by and took all his shit. He’s supposed have moved into an apartment with a roommate. I’m not even going to front, it was one of those things where I know he needed to go, but a part of me had gotten used to him being around. He will be missed, but it was about time we stopped playing house. We obviously are not on the same page here, and I just really wish him the best. So, to help release all this built up frustrations, I have been concentrating more on my writing, my hobby in music, and definitely working out and eating healthier. I cut out a lot of sugars and I’m staying away from sodas and carbonated drinks and I’m already starting to look and feel better.

I’m really excited because I know I will have my new and improved look by the summer. My cousin is getting married in July and my sister in September! AARGH! All these weddings. However to sum up this post, it’s been a while, but I am definitely BLESSED. Being blessed with good health, consistency with family, good friends, knowledge, wisdom, energy, if only I can be touched a little bit more by the money angel I would be SOO straight, but even so it’s still all good, because a brotha is maintaining. I’m not the only one blessed here, remember those talented Brittenum twins on American Idol that were getting all their bad publicity regarding an identity theft charge? Yeah, they got signed on to J Dupri’s ATL based SoSoDef label this morning! The condition was, of course, that they stay out of trouble, which I believe they will after receiving this blessing. God is Good.

CrunkSpot:
"No More Rain" Angie Stone

Monday, January 09, 2006

Cum on Homie, We Major

Well I haven’t been posting for a while and it’s because I have been feeling a bit under the weather the past couple of days. Quick shout out to Mr. Trent Jackson who didn’t care how fucked up I sounded and took the time to talk to me anyway. I was heavily induced by a mixture of tea, Nyquil, and kryptonite so I hope I didn't say anything that can or will be used against me in a court of law! LOL Thanks for the convo man, you made me laugh when I felt like crap.

So things have been looking up I am starting to feel better and I had a good weekend. Unfortunately, Mr. D and I are having a “falling out”. I trusted Mr. D with something that was of great importance to me financially and he was extremely irresponsible. I guess the saying is very true “if you need to get something done right, do it yourself”. I don’t know why I keep bumping my head against the same wall when it comes to this essential lesson in life but I really hope Mr. D gets some type of clue of what it means to be an adult in the real world. I know it definitely will not be on my expense, so he and I are not communicating right at the moment. They say to do those things yourself because if you dont, and then that other person fuck up, then it's your OWN responsiblity for putting it on someone else. And I won't be mad for too long. I’m not one to hold grudges so I don’t expect for this to carry on too much longer than it should. The fact that I have more important issues on my plate makes it easier for me to keep my distance.

I made it a blockbuster night on Friday. I rented Four Brothers and The Gospel, two very good movies. I wasn’t all that thrilled with Four Brothers as I was with The Gospel. I recommend anyone who hasn’t seen it yet to go out and get it. It was a very uplifting movie I saw a lot of myself in the character played by Kodjoe. I already had the soundtrack so it was good to see the movie play it out.

So some friends and I gave a surprise birthday party for my friend Shortcake on Saturday. Her aunt and some peeps took her to dinner while I went to the nightclub where we were ALL going to surprise her at afterwards. It was a str8 function at one of the trendier clubs in Buckhead ATL, but the actions from some of the guests there tried to prove it otherwise. Nothing is always so str8 and narrow in this messy city. Nevertheless the night was really all about Shortcake; she was really surprised to see us all there and it went exactly as planned. I am so glad she had a good time, she really deserved it.

So is it me or is anyone as shocked as I am to see the mess VH1 has created with “Flava of Love”. LOL That man is a riot. I don’t now where he found these females at but they are OFF the chain. There’s one that got cut last night, with some golden braids, and she was a mess. She had a fit in the van and went off on some other girl named New York and made herself look so ridiculous. I almost want to say I’m ashamed of watching this mess but I am actually enjoying these women act a fool.

I was feeling Major like Kanye this weekend: “Feeling better than some head on a Sunday afternoon, better than a chick that say yes to soon…” you know the rest. Well I got that and then some on Sunday so I guess that was my weekend track. Part of my resolution this year, aside from getting more fit and eating right, is to stop having anonymous sex. Sunday was good no complaints there, but I know it was more about my own personal frustrations than it was for the sex itself so I need to start finding more productive outlets to work these things out. I need to focus more on my writing and music. I want to do more with music on my blog so look out for that in the future. My attempt is to find something original so it doesn’t look like I’m trying to copy anyone or shit like that. You know how some folks can be.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Manager's Etiquette 101

Is it me or does it not feel like a new year? Today does but it didn’t feel like one yesterday. I wasn’t feeling much at all yesterday morning because I called in sick to work. I wasn’t clinically ill but my mind and body was tired. I think maybe I was still recovering from jet lag from last weekend when I had to conform my body rest from EST to PST within just a few days difference. Many people were off yesterday, like banks, other offices, etc. so why weren’t we? I work for an insurance company and if it’s not a major holiday-we are working. So this is how our conversation went yesterday morning..

Manager: Good morning this is (his name) may I help you?

Soforeal: Yes, good morning (his name) I’m sorry but I am not feeling well today at all. I have had a high fever all last night and this morning I woke up extremely congested. It hurts when I speak.

Manager: Uh-huh.

5 second delay….

Soforeal: I’m going to hope I can get better today so I can come in tomorrow. Is that alright?

Manager: Yep.

Soforeal: Okay thank you.

Manager hangs up.

Lord knows I am not an irresponsible person so this kind of takes me by surprise. I started working for this “company” last summer and I know this is only the second time I call in sick. The first time the conversation was very similar. It’s dry and inconsiderate. Sounds like they need a course in Manager's Etiquette 101. I mean damn at least try to pretend to be concerned for my well being. I don’t care that you think I’m trying to extend a holiday weekend on a day I’m supposed to be at work, but at least say "hope you feel better" if you don't really mean it. Maybe manager was just giving me a dose of soforeal by not faking the funk, but I got real with it too and went straight back to sleep when that awful conversation was over. It's not phasing me though. I’m not even going to discuss the whole tuition reimbursement drama that went down last month before year end either. There are things about this “company” that get on my nerve but the funny thing about it is that the "company" is one of the stressors I let go and let God about for the new year. Only because I know He has something in the works for me. There will be some changes this year and it may or may not include this “company”, so I’m not really trippen on them for the 06. I just thought that it’s funny that people act like this at the workplace. So anyway I did get some much needed rest for a second day in a row yesterday and now I am fully recovered and ready to start this work week. Not much has been going on but my PC at home is trippen so I haven’t been able to use any of my messengers or check my personal email until later this week-that really sucks. Also yesterday morning I made a swift comment to SO about having to get on the ball on his move. I really have been considering the business I got to handle in CA as a priority and I would hate to leave SO behind in a predicament where he felt like he wasn’t given enough time. He came to the Soforeal domain in November, so we are quickly approaching 90 days. He went to look for apartments yesterday while I stayed at home and enjoyed sleep in my own bed with my own self for the first time this year.

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