PRAYER CHANGES THINGS

Well what do you know? The state of CA gave me a break and I did not have to serve that time like I thought I would! God is so good! The mistake I made years ago would have carried a ten day sentence in this particular county. I prayed I would not have to serve the whole ten days but it turned out for the best cause I did not have to do a single day. Of course I was slapped with a grip of fees but it was all worth it at the end. I was ready to make the very best of this unfortunate experience. I was going to return and share each day of that experience on this blog, but it wasn’t in the cards for me. Instead of spending a holiday weekend at Oz I went to Laughlin, Nevada with my brother and family. We left on Friday morning and just got back Monday afternoon. Here is a picture of where I spent most of my time (and money).

Laughlin is a strip of high rise hotels and casinos with the Colorado River running right beside it. People from all over the place come to this vacation hot spot with boats and jet skis for the weekend and it is very reminiscent of Las Vegas. I love going there! I had been there two other times before this last trip. Laughlin is about 5 hours away from where my family lives in California. We hitched my brothers jet skis on the trailer and drove them up there.
The water was extremely cold but we did a whole lot of swimming and I even got a much needed tan. Having been in ATL for so long I did not realize how overdue my skin was for some California sun lol. There were a few things that did not go that smooth but overall I had the time of my life. I was so grateful that I was able to spend quality time like this with my niece and nephew instead of having to stay at some crowded smelly jail. Here are some pics of the family and I on this memorable trip.

So life has been real good to me this year because I got a big obstacle out the way and I have reunited with family after a real long time. Now it’s time for me to back home where my heart is and my flight is booked for June 27 headed back to the ATL. What sucks is that I haven’t found the courage to break the news to my family yet. I plan to do it this week but man they are not going to like the news. They really pushed for me to stay here but the truth is I was doing so good where I was at. I really tried to stay around family this time around but one thing I learned about them was that even THEY are not perfect. As a kid I looked up to so many people for role models such as my older brother, uncles, my mother, etc. Yet never in a million years would I expect to point out to myself the evident flaws these people in my life have. One thing I did learn from this experience is that no ONE is perfect. How funny that sometimes we put family and loved ones high up on that pedestal, so much that you forget who really is sitting at the very top. I learned that He is the only one perfect in this life, and I learned that only through Him will I continue to face my fears and continue walking in faith. I had a much needed vacation this weekend and was able to think through a great deal of things that have been on my mind. Don’t worry, I wrote them down in case I run out of ideas for this blog.

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"If You Can Only See" Tonic

Untitled Cause I Say So

Alright for Danielle! I can’t wait to see her doing other projects! Thank you Tyra but please try not to transform her to a video hoe. OK? Oh yeah and where the hell is Kim?!? If yall can’t tell by now I’ve had a Crush on Kim since ’96 but the bitch is so trifling. I was thinking about writing to her but I haven’t. Oh well, she’s too busy reading letters from Marc Jacob and shit she probably does not have time for me. If you all are interested they did an official “behind bars” interview in May’s issue of XXL. She also has a hot verse on a track called “Stomp” and no it is not with Kirk Franklin. It’s some rapper called Maino. Who is he? Hell I don’t know I just know she’s on it so it’s hot. I hope she’s doing alright. I, on the other hand, is seriously trippen. Part of my sentencing here are 5 days community service. They’re not talking about stacking books at the library either. They have something out here called CalTrans and it’s a state agency dedicated to highways and shit. So guess what they got me doing…you got it. Physical ass labor. I’m not feeling it at all. The physical labor isn’t what bothers me. I actually like the fact at least I’m getting good exercise. I think the fact that they want you to show up at 6:30 am is what gets on my nerves. Don’t they know I’m in the middle of nowhere and have to get up at 5am to get there on time? Saturday morning they made two Mexicans go back home because they were late. Like if they were getting paid! Anyway so Tuesday and Wednesday will be my last two days cause I already did three. Then I turn myself in for my 10 day sentence on Thursday.

This experience is really opening my eyes up to a lot. I have learned a lot about myself and the choices I have made in the past. Maybe in a few days I will post about them. Right now all I know is that I’m really missing the ATL and yes I’m going back. Probably right after I get out of this legal mess I’m in. I tried to take care of this from GA but the court was like, no, you have to show up. Please don’t think I’m some felon either, this is all over some retarded ass traffic tickets that were left pending over a long period of time and I guess that’s why they’re trying to make me pay some consequences. Which I really don’t mind, but they won’t be seeing my ass here much longer. I love the weather here and everything but right now all I want is some Waffle House and a large Georgia sweet tea. I asked for it at the Denny’s here and the waitress was like, “Sweet Tea? We don’t carry that…we have iced tea?” Bitch ain’t that the same thing! Well when she brought it over I quickly discovered it was not. Even though it wasn’t her fault, I did not leave a tip. I don’t care either I was in a bad mood after that. She could have offered to stir some sugar in my tea. Or some sugar on my tongue. That would have really gotten her a tip-maybe Yep, I’m home sick. S.O. called me the other day, left a message, and I haven’t talked to him since. I tried calling him, but refused to leave a message on his roommate’s cell phone. Yeah, he hasn’t even gotten his own phone yet how tired is that? But I miss his tired ass. I also miss my friend Romeo and my friend shortcake. Everyone is going to think I’m crazy when I tell them I’m moving back to Atlanta but you know what I don’t even care. I think I’m getting real tired of worrying about what people will think about the decisions I make in MY life. It’s just that I really wanted to be close to family but since I’ve moved here I just see that everyone is living their life the way they want to and maybe I should do the same. I just can’t shake the memories I’ve left behind here. Some were good but most were pretty bad and maybe I’m in a different place in my life. Anyway, at least I still have my apartment in Atlanta so all I have to do is get my ticket once I’m out of Oz.

Is anyone else just as tired of Elton always blowing a hissy fit over nothing. What is wrong with that queen? I’ve noticed a few wack and crazy thangs goin on in Hollywood since I’ve been here. Like, what is up with this Terri Seymour chick who just came out of nowhere and is Simon’s alleged girlfriend? Yeah right. Just like Seacrest and his girlfriend. If Taylor wins I will boycott Idol forever! Why is Gary Coleman doing commercials for payday advances? What happened? And if anyone else is wondering what Free from 106 and Park is doing for work she has a time slot from 3-7pm on LA’s 100.3 the Beat. How wonderful is that? I’m just wondering which paycheck was bigger, hmm? Well anyway I was part of the flock that went to seek the truth this weekend and saw the “Davinci Code” Saturday night. Which reminds me of something that happened that day that was real interesting. Maybe I’ll post about it tomorrow. I’m going to bed.

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"Promiscuous" Nelly Furtado feat Timbaland

WHO I THINK SHOULD WIN

DANIELLE

ELLIOT YAMIN

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“Poppin My Colla” 36 Mafia

Countdown to Lockdown and Other Things

Well, well, well so much to say here but so little time. I’m in Southern Cali and things aren’t going good and they’re not going bad, they’re just going. I’m definitely blessed with good health and my family is doing good too so I am grateful for those things. I really missed writing in this blog and I’m glad I’m finally getting a chance to do it. I haven’t been able to hook up my desktop PC because my mom’s home office has no room for it. So I had to go get me a notebook because I had no idea how dependent I was on modern tech LOL. There’s been a whole lot goin on with me and my ability to adapt to my new environment. It so happens my mother lives in the middle of the desert in a town called Sun City about 70 miles south of Los Angeles. There is nothing here but some large and beautiful homes and several senior citizen subdivisions. I don’t understand why my mom chose to move down here but apparently she is not so happy with the area either and she is looking to move back to the city. I won’t be moving with her because as many predicted I am ATL home sick and I’m contemplating when I will be returning. The lack of culture and things (and people) to do is getting to me. I’ve been spending most of my time here with my family which is good but it’s taking a long time for me to get adjusted over here and I’m getting impatient. The biggest challenge I’ve had to face here yet are my past legal woes that led me here in the first place. I guess you can consider what I have to do here my own Soforeal Countdown to Lockdown…they tryin to put a brotha in jail!!!! LOL. No seriously I have to do a ten day sentence on 5/25/06 and I’m so not looking forward to it. I also have to do five days community service as well. How thuggish. The sooner I get done with this the sooner I can get back to my life cause things need to get back to normal for me. The closest gym here is about 35 miles away and between the lack of what used to be a routine work out and the junk I have been eating out of stress has led to me gaining back what I worked so hard for to lose in weight. Why is it so hard to shed the pounds but so easy to put them back on?? “Well so what I got a little fat cause my shorty told me he like it like that shit” get it? Remy? Ok nevermind. That’s another thing, I miss my iTunes. As soon as I’m done posting this I’m going to start on my next project on getting my tunes on this notebook.

Sometimes life throws us curveballs we are not prepared to handle. Years ago when I used to live here I used to talk to this very handsome brotha I’ll call him Dee who lived in the Wood out in L.A. The attraction was definitely there but he suggested we take things slow because he didn’t want to ruin the friendship we had. We both enjoyed music and movies, and he was head over heels over Blu Cantrell. He was really a fan, the man had posters and pictures of her all over his place. LOL. My fast self used to try and take our friendship to the next level and he would aways stop it before it got too hot and heavy, repeating to me the fact that we should wait and take things slow. Instead, we would had several blockbuster nights at his place, watching movies and falling asleep on each other on his couch. We would go eat wings at this really good spot in L.A. and hang out and talk for hours about movies and music. He was such a good guy and we used to chat on and off when I moved to ATL. He used to send me cards on the holidays and we used to swap horror stories of some of the wack and messed up brothas we had been meeting. After a while we both agreed if I ever were to come back to Cali we would probably start exclusively dating, cause we were both in a point in our lives where we could handle something like that. We lost touch a few months ago and then the number got disconnected. Since I’ve been here I have been trying to get back in touch with him and I recently found out he passed away in February. The whole situation is kind of emotional to me cause I was not expecting to hear that about the guy. He was in what I believed perfect health, in his late twenties, and so full of energy and charm. I’ve been a wreck over this because I really don’t know how he passed, and I know he had sisters up in Frisco but I have no contact info on them. The whole situation is kind of fucked up but I am just praying that he is in fact in a better place as cliché as it sounds. One thing about this is how we need to appreciate the people we have around us because God can take them from us without warning. I wish I would have been able to talk to him more or made more initiative to come visit him as I promised I would. Last time we spoke was around Easter last year I believe, and he joked on how he didn’t even get a card from me on his birthday but he was looking forward to seeing me when I came back to the West Side. He always found a way to make me laugh when I was feeling down and he was one of the most down to earth people I know. It’s kind of hard because it seems like everyone else here I know has their own drama and BS they goin thru themselves so I really don’t want to bring anybody down with this kind of news. I have been able to talk with my sister in law and she was some real good support when I found out about the news but other than her I really have been keeping this to myself.

Well about mother’s day it was great! My brother and I took out my sister in law and mom to dinner at this awesome Mexican restaurant not too far from where we’re at and ate some real good food! You guys must try this desert it’s called fried ice cream. Dam that shit was good! It’s like a fluffy pastry over a sweet coating of a caramel with French vanilla ice cream inside. It was so dam good I woke up this morning thinking about it! LOL. I have had enough with eating junk though seriously. I look in the mirror and I can see the love handles coming back and I am not happy with that. Starbucks is part to blame cause I got addicted to the caramel fraps again! Ok and I didn’t want this to be a long post so I’ll cut it right here for right now. It’s early Monday morning over here and the weather is great so I’m going for a jog.

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“I Wish” R. Kelly