Countdown to Lockdown and Other Things

Well, well, well so much to say here but so little time. I’m in Southern Cali and things aren’t going good and they’re not going bad, they’re just going. I’m definitely blessed with good health and my family is doing good too so I am grateful for those things. I really missed writing in this blog and I’m glad I’m finally getting a chance to do it. I haven’t been able to hook up my desktop PC because my mom’s home office has no room for it. So I had to go get me a notebook because I had no idea how dependent I was on modern tech LOL. There’s been a whole lot goin on with me and my ability to adapt to my new environment. It so happens my mother lives in the middle of the desert in a town called Sun City about 70 miles south of Los Angeles. There is nothing here but some large and beautiful homes and several senior citizen subdivisions. I don’t understand why my mom chose to move down here but apparently she is not so happy with the area either and she is looking to move back to the city. I won’t be moving with her because as many predicted I am ATL home sick and I’m contemplating when I will be returning. The lack of culture and things (and people) to do is getting to me. I’ve been spending most of my time here with my family which is good but it’s taking a long time for me to get adjusted over here and I’m getting impatient. The biggest challenge I’ve had to face here yet are my past legal woes that led me here in the first place. I guess you can consider what I have to do here my own Soforeal Countdown to Lockdown…they tryin to put a brotha in jail!!!! LOL. No seriously I have to do a ten day sentence on 5/25/06 and I’m so not looking forward to it. I also have to do five days community service as well. How thuggish. The sooner I get done with this the sooner I can get back to my life cause things need to get back to normal for me. The closest gym here is about 35 miles away and between the lack of what used to be a routine work out and the junk I have been eating out of stress has led to me gaining back what I worked so hard for to lose in weight. Why is it so hard to shed the pounds but so easy to put them back on?? “Well so what I got a little fat cause my shorty told me he like it like that shit” get it? Remy? Ok nevermind. That’s another thing, I miss my iTunes. As soon as I’m done posting this I’m going to start on my next project on getting my tunes on this notebook.

Sometimes life throws us curveballs we are not prepared to handle. Years ago when I used to live here I used to talk to this very handsome brotha I’ll call him Dee who lived in the Wood out in L.A. The attraction was definitely there but he suggested we take things slow because he didn’t want to ruin the friendship we had. We both enjoyed music and movies, and he was head over heels over Blu Cantrell. He was really a fan, the man had posters and pictures of her all over his place. LOL. My fast self used to try and take our friendship to the next level and he would aways stop it before it got too hot and heavy, repeating to me the fact that we should wait and take things slow. Instead, we would had several blockbuster nights at his place, watching movies and falling asleep on each other on his couch. We would go eat wings at this really good spot in L.A. and hang out and talk for hours about movies and music. He was such a good guy and we used to chat on and off when I moved to ATL. He used to send me cards on the holidays and we used to swap horror stories of some of the wack and messed up brothas we had been meeting. After a while we both agreed if I ever were to come back to Cali we would probably start exclusively dating, cause we were both in a point in our lives where we could handle something like that. We lost touch a few months ago and then the number got disconnected. Since I’ve been here I have been trying to get back in touch with him and I recently found out he passed away in February. The whole situation is kind of emotional to me cause I was not expecting to hear that about the guy. He was in what I believed perfect health, in his late twenties, and so full of energy and charm. I’ve been a wreck over this because I really don’t know how he passed, and I know he had sisters up in Frisco but I have no contact info on them. The whole situation is kind of fucked up but I am just praying that he is in fact in a better place as cliché as it sounds. One thing about this is how we need to appreciate the people we have around us because God can take them from us without warning. I wish I would have been able to talk to him more or made more initiative to come visit him as I promised I would. Last time we spoke was around Easter last year I believe, and he joked on how he didn’t even get a card from me on his birthday but he was looking forward to seeing me when I came back to the West Side. He always found a way to make me laugh when I was feeling down and he was one of the most down to earth people I know. It’s kind of hard because it seems like everyone else here I know has their own drama and BS they goin thru themselves so I really don’t want to bring anybody down with this kind of news. I have been able to talk with my sister in law and she was some real good support when I found out about the news but other than her I really have been keeping this to myself.

Well about mother’s day it was great! My brother and I took out my sister in law and mom to dinner at this awesome Mexican restaurant not too far from where we’re at and ate some real good food! You guys must try this desert it’s called fried ice cream. Dam that shit was good! It’s like a fluffy pastry over a sweet coating of a caramel with French vanilla ice cream inside. It was so dam good I woke up this morning thinking about it! LOL. I have had enough with eating junk though seriously. I look in the mirror and I can see the love handles coming back and I am not happy with that. Starbucks is part to blame cause I got addicted to the caramel fraps again! Ok and I didn’t want this to be a long post so I’ll cut it right here for right now. It’s early Monday morning over here and the weather is great so I’m going for a jog.

CrunkSpot:
“I Wish” R. Kelly