S.O. Amazing

My SO did something amazing last night. We were talking on the phone and I was just going off about going to CA and how long it’s been since I’ve been there and how excited I am and blah blah blah. I was a bit lifted so I know I was really feeling myself in the convo but then all of the sudden he cuts me off. But not in a bad way. He was like he could tell in my voice how more at peace I was with myself now that I have made contact with my family after 4 years. He said he was hoping I would have soon enough because he felt I really needed to be more involved with my famiy. This man never ceases to amaze me because I was thinking the same thing. Only I felt it right after I got off the phone with my mother on Saturday. My response to him was that he was right, and that this trip meant alot especially around Christmas, and so on and so on. So soon enough the conversation ended and I was just left there thinking I appreciate him being more open with me. I’m all about honesty and saying things right now at the moment and not restrain from speaking how you feel so I was really feelin my SO last night. That’s real.

Okay bigger and better things have been happening. I have to set aside some money cause now I need to get me some gear before I go on this trip. I gotta look fresh while I’m in CA. And I’m going to have to get to the gym more. That’s a must. I got to find someone to switch their schedule with me next Friday because the flight leaves at 7:10 and getting off at 5 and rush hour traffic is not going to work. These are just a few of the things I have to do to prep for my trip.

I still haven’t figured out what to do for New Years Eve but I know I will be toe up somewhere at somebody’s bar LOL. I did the gay bars the past couple of years I think this year I will party with the str8 and narrow. I’m eyeing this King Kong movie I might check it out this weekend.

Today we had our Xmas dinner at work. No big deal, just a bunch of dry ass food that was catered. The banana pudding was off the chain though, so that means an extra 20 minutes cardio tomorrow. One thing I was thinking to myself was how some of the employees brought some of their relatives/spouses over for the dinner. I work in a small office of about 50 employees, all mostly Caucasian and over 30. What if SO showed up for the dinner? Man some of them hoes at the job would flip their wig. All but for my girl Tee, she is “family” and also swings both ways. But what about everyone else? It's crazy because it would have worked out, because it's not like he and I can spend Xmas together this year; i'm gonna be away in Cali. We're both masculine and all, but it just would NOT look right. It just reminds me of some of the things that you have to sacrifice when involved with a same sex partner. I know it’s my own choice to have it this way. Certainly my SO would have been welcome, but it would have been in exchange for the strange stares, confused looks, and dropped jaws to the floor. I keep my sex life to myself in the work environment, so they will never see SO at the job. I think no matter how much I can try and play it off like, “oh, that’s my boi” it will only take that ONE ho to entertain the idea and then I would have to go the fcuk off. So, I played with the idea of him being at the dinner in my head for a while as I picked over dry stuffing and bitter cranberries. The best part of this dinner were some of my coworker's children who came to visit the job and that slammin pudding. Oh, and my imaginary Xmas dinner with SO at the job lol. (grins)